Ever had a moment... a moment in time that will forever change the course of a chosen path? A moment that transcends all rhythm, rhyme, reason.. Overwhelmed with emotions... consumed by feelings... Feelings with no base... or is there? Playing a game of tongue twister.. can't speak.. palms get sweaty, cheeks flushed, feeling the pounding of your heart consuming every facet of your being... Trying to keep composure.. Failing miserably.... Fight or Flight? Goosebumps take over and then the shaking begins... Breathe, you tell yourself... attempting to find the sense to your body's natural fluidity... Control, my best friend, where can you be? Abandoned by all logic, I lay there... trying to stay calm as I slowly drown... choking on my own fears and insecurities... grasping for sense. Running as fast as I can, yet can't seem to move a muscle. Maybe can't isn't the right word.. Maybe it's more like I don't want to.
Oh Pride where can you be? Control finds the Exit sign and then you too? Who is this person.. I look in the mirror and don't recognize the girl looking back at me... Yet, the more i look, the more i see, the more i see, the more i feel.. the more i feel, the more open I am... and then suddenly, I get slapped with the realization that there is no rationale in matters of the heart....
Pause *Big Sigh* I surrender.
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